welcome number eight!

sayonara 07 and welcome 08.

Its been a while i havent post any blog here.

I am currently in Hobart spending quality time working and enjoying myself as a tourist here.

I did not just lazing around and have fun, instead i am working as much as i can to get money so that i could spend something for myself.

I deserve to have it and i know why.

Living far from home has made me become wiser each day.

It has widen my perspective of thinking, broaden my perception towards life and gaining knowledge in every kind of aspects. This includes cooking and baking!

2007

Thank you God for those years and i am grateful i am still here typing in front of the virtual world. Too many tears, too many joy, hardship,and fat!

i am getting chubby !!

hmm.

Thanks mum and thanks dad for your guide and support verbally or spiritually.

I can say i am the black sheep of the family but since theres a lot of white radiance product that sells in the market i guess the black could turn fairer.

haha just joking! Nope. im not. I am still rebellious and still dealing with my own anger management and still looking for the x factor of myself.

Well..this is me.

I know what to look for the next years to come. thank you 95% for helping me to see my own path. Advertising is not for me.

Maybe not yet.

i have my own path to lead and to choose beside advertising.

2007

I had choose my own choice with my own decision without help or persuade from others mouth.

Pursue education to a higher lever out from my comfort zone.

its totally out from the zone and cross the border.

Its a big decision i've made and i can say im a survivor and i will survive.

Those experiences and knowledges i gain from previous mistakes will help me to improve myself. Life is just a game and we're in it so deal with it.

Winning or losing is not the matter, what does matter is earning and learning it.

Alhamdulillah mum had chance to perform haj and i will always for her happiness.

Family is the most treasure we has and do not loose it.

We know what's the best for each of us and im proud of it.

My first brother will have his degree in pshycology and international relation(still not sure how to explain to people what does IR means but it has to do with political and people's mind)

My second brother is so good in computer and he has his own software and he will become Malaysian's Bill Gate( when it comes to computer problems, i'll call him)

Me! will soon be graphic designer and has her own ambition and still has interest in Economy subject and sometimes read Economic Review magazine for updates.

Mum aka dad is slowly adapt herself and learning to accept that her children has grown up and should decide their own decicion. Its time to let us go but be by our side please..thank you.

so..this is us and hopefully 2008 will be a great year and bring joyful and makes us together and be a happy family like we used too. Thank you God and Alhamdulillah.

with love.....

The chaos time.

Struggle.

I struggle my time for the knowledge i gain.
I struggle my thoughts for the things i want.
I struggle my emotion for people i love.
I struggle my money for the most priority things first.

I am quite upset with the condition here.
We are Minority..but still we are fighting.
Fighting for things that we don't belong.
Waiting to be spoon feed by others.
Giving all sort of reason to asked for mercy.
Hey! wake up. You are being too comfort in your box.
Please wake up and try to look other side of your view.
It is so wide and plenty of space to venture!
Open your eyes wide. See the skies. See the birds.
See everything and understand it.
Don't just sit in your box waiting for help.
Don't just sitting, waitng and wishing.
it wont come to you.
please wake up and do something.
I am ashamed for you being like that.

Sometimes there is so many obstacles and odd in life we must go through.
Being judge,
being discriminate,
being laugh by strangers,
being asked question that we don't know what's the answer.
Being apart from the exact stories.
Being someone that is not really our self.

For me,
I am proud to say i am here with all by myself.
With my own money, my own initiative to solves every circumstances i faced.
I walk through the barrier with guts and faith.
I will go through it. Insyaallah.

so for those who think life is not fair,
then i think you must think back inside you
before you start pointing your fingers to others.

Life is great but you turn it the other way round.

Salam Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin to all of you!

Makanan yang best waktu raya: Nasi Impit dgn masak lodeh, Rendang ayam dengan ketupat, rendang daging ada limpa and hati..sedap!

minum pulak dengan air gas or air sirap yang sejuk. Lepas makan tu semua, ada pulak kuih untuk desert. Kuih yang paling best chocolate chip n cornflakes honey. London Almond and Jam tart. Wow!

Lepas makan kain baju kurung dah ketat.Hehehe..tukar la baju and pakaila baju baru. Kadang kadang ada bau kedai kalau tak sempat basuh. Tengok tv dengan mama n abg. Kalau ayah ada lagi best!

Gelak gelak and tengok cerita kelakar macam senario. Lepas tu mengantuk.hahaha..Kita pon tido kat living hall. Dah petang sikit mama terbangun and ajak pegi raya rumah makcik kat shah alam.

Makan lagi!

Makan lagi!

Gelak lagi!

Gelak Lagi!

lepas tuh....Kita bermaafan.

But this year. It is so different. We had a voice conference together. Abg at oz, Mama at kl, im at Nz.It is so different and very akward celebrate like this. But its all fine kan mama. Hope you are strong there. Hold on k. We will be celebrate together next year insyaallah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to mama, amin and abg eman.

* And for you up there, This is the 9th years celebrate without you but i guess we are still having fun. If you were here...I cant imagine how its like.

Selamat Hari Raya Ayah.

Hujan!

New Indie band from Malaysia.

The vocalist's voice is a bit out of tune but i like the melody.

Hujan= The hives, the stroke, Naif..

The cover album is quite nice.
I like the typo and 'j'.
Really look like a innocent, pure and simple band.

*I support malaysian music! Keep on rockin!

345

its 345 am in wanganui.
i called mama just now.
it was full of laugh, sadness and thoughts about human, life and us.
i miss you mum.

I don't know why when i called her everythings will feel so good eventhough there is so many things i have to catch up with here.Gratitute, amused, lucky, overwhelm and thankful.
This sunday is Hari Raya and here i am still stuck with designing process.
Being apart from home is a feeling that not everyone could imagine how its going to look like and i am one of them. I am very lucky to experience it. Yes i admit it is hard and challenging but thank god im still alive and the saddess part is living in WANGANUI!
WANGANUI?
hahaha.don't ever think about it. Yes. it is better than Africa and its not as good as Wellington.(huh?) ok what's my point here is..feels like dejavu everyday. Seeing same people, greet same old folks, buying same thing from the same groceries shop for 1 and a half years?
yes.wanganui is so small. Roughly the size is like Perlis.
Cycling bicycle with big helmet.hahah..its funny. I cant imagine how but yes...i am a rider now!
And the best part is its PINK! oh god!
but after all its all a good experience for me. I learn a lot and will learn more soon.

mum.miss you.

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Structuralism: Language of thought.

Ideas rejected?

how can an ideas get rejected? after all this topic is about one's perception towards a philosopher.But it's ok. I can still give another point of view about it.A typo person is so serious that i could not give any ideas that is so wild.hahaha..that's interesting to get to know this kind of person.oh ya.what do we call a person who loves typography? typoist? typhophile? or typhoon?:) Here's some of my essay about it.

Take a look at the image on top and do you have the same thinking of everyone in the world?
Buffalo, Capricorn, Crab, Lion. That was the first icon that I recognized first. Then my mind automatically tries to trash out those memories of the image and where did I saw it before. Yes. It was in the newspaper under zodiac column. How did I know that was a zodiac symbol? Is my perception has the same perception like anyone else? Are these icon are the same in other country like Japan or Mongolia?
Now I understand what was De Saussure were trying to say in his theory. I were asked to rewrite again the whole essay about structuralism or deconstruction. Yes I admit the previous one was just for the sake of submitting. Why do I tend to do that at the first place?
Language barrier. Why most of my Kiwi classmate tend to understand the whole meaning about this topic while I in the other hand were dying to listen very carefully the words came out by everyone during discussion session. I had to say it is all about language and its usage. In different languages the grammar rules are different, as are the words are put together within a grammatical system to make meaning. Apparently, the word’s structure is still the same in all languages. Even though I know how to speak English but it is not the same like the New Zealanders. Every human culture has some sort of language, which has the basic structure of all language. Even a Japanese can’t really pronounce some English words quite well even though we are talking the same language. Language, accent or body movement? Which will come first during a conversation with a stranger or a tourist or even to our friends?
A structuralists believe that the main structures which organize units ( the alphabets) and rules( the grammar) into a conventional systems are generated by the human mind itself, and not by own perception. This is important, because it means that, for structuralists, the order that we perceive in the world is not inheritance from our family, but is a product produced by our minds. It's not that there is no "reality out there," beyond human perception, but rather that there is too much "reality" to be perceived coherently without some kind of "grammar" or system to organize and limit them. Different people have different way of interpret things that they see and hear either in Mathematics, Biology, or even in Religion.

For me, the way I see this thing is by giving an example of a sponge. It depends on what kind of liquid you sucks and how did you squeeze it out. You determine it your own way of sucking and squeezing by using your own method or system based on what you have learned in previous experience. Words play important role in human life and these are the main medium to communicate and tells one’s idea and thought. I agree with Saussure theory about simplifier and simplified system. Every thing has it own imagery and it depends on how a person sees it. An apple is just a object. Some interprets is a food and some see it as a history of Adam and Eve.


oh i think that's about it. it would be a bit bored reading this but i found it quite interesting to reallise that there is a person called structuralist who really cares about languange and thought.

:0

cheers.

1147pm in Malaysia.

Its 350am in wanganui.
Today the time seems pretty slow cuz i am currently being obsess with new web called trademe.co.nz. Ebay wasnt so famous in nz so i thought of browsing through to buy a cheap laptop. My laptop broke down on the first day i arrived here probably because of the weather(i guess). haha.
So its been a month and a half i'veen livin here without my digital diary and my friend...my laptop. Imagine how i live inside the room staring at the wall every nite. Oh ya..back on Trademe.com. I thought of buying macbook pro or mac book. I can get $800 for macbook and & 1200 for macbookpro. Its quite cheap though. But then i found another stuff that made me bid the item. It was sony vios! im bidding for $810. the spec is quite good: 1gb ram 100gb h.d,processor 1.83 and graphic card is nvidia geforce.
Isnt it cool!
huhu...i am looking foward to get it and continue back my studies.
The work is quite interesting and fun! i have to design or brand my own restaurant.
So i am planning to mix lomography+ cafe= LomoLatte@Lomolipop.
I am looking foward to have the skills called modelling. Its cool learning stuff that i can actually transform a 2dimensional stuff to 3d. Something like transformer thingy.

WANGANUI
This place is just a small town where i can actually meet mostly same people everyday at main street.
They are quite friendly but then there is some certain percentage of racism.

Luckily i look like maorians..hahaha..so.. i escaped from those racism by the black mafia. They are the street maorians that hates asian because they thought the place is their's.

But sometimes they have the right to voice their opinion because they are the native people and they have rights to say their thought.

Being a tribal Polynesian people, Maori have a unique protocol same like the malays. I have one housemate from Crook Island and he thought im one of his people.
They have same cultures like malays. It is interesting knowing that other certain part of world, theres a people practising same thing like we do back in malaysia.


i need to sleep. I think i wanna cook chic curry tomorrow. Damn i miss malaysian food. Let's see..how well the curry will look like tomorrow.Yippe!

Penang.Nasi kandar.char kuey teow,laksa,...damn i cant stop thinking bout the food we have in malaysia. I am so proud to be Malaysian because i can eat whatever i want and as much as i want!


FISH N CHIP SUX!

:p

Blink!

Im here in wanganui. Just arrive couple of weeks and now i just started my class. Damn it is so different than what i aspected it will be.
It is just two of us sitting who has brownish kind of skin(besides the maorians) in the center of the class.
The class consist of 20 people and it is just not the teenagers attending the GRAPHIC school but we have quite couples of student whom i can actually call them mummy. :p

I am quite happy and at the same time shock and the same time sad and at the same time curious and theres a lot of emotions in myself i couldnt describe. ok i have ideas about deconstruction and structuralism and i will give my p.o.v about that later.

change.

"we human have special abilities..which is the abilities to adapt in various situation and environment.you may feel uneasy, stressed, unhappy, disturbed and so on.

u will recover from all that. the key to recovery is TIME.

and emotional wound is somehow similar to phisical wound.

somehow it will heal. it just needs time and assistance.something that can help to increase recovery.and when the emotional wound has been recovered,u will be stronger.

somehow it is a way of life: gain strength by pain and suffering.in that way also teaches u not to make the same mistake again.so,to play it safe, find solution.not savouring the pain, but find solution."

that was what i read and put it in my mind..
i was extremely down last few days and i recover it slowly.
laugh..tears and pain..thats life.

back again.

i choose to blog again..this is because im inspired by those people who really know how to write in this virtual world. i blogged once. but then i deleted it due to some certain reason..so now..im back..blogging with my own words,my own idea and my own observation..i will start to write again..yes i know sumtimes i write nonsense..but thats where i inspired myself...
guys...thanks for bringing me up...u know who u are...
















cheeers!