cheers darling.

Ag ideas is interesting brief but i need to be more flexible with the group im into. Its 2 kiwis and 1 asian. Personally i think the asian mind are much more creative rather than the western. Im not saying that im good because i am classified as a logical person or someone called me Kejora or Kemboja..i forgot whats the term but it was a Malaysian Government ads style. That's me! 

Is it?

hmm im not quite sure but sometimes i do feel that i have too logical thoughts and sometimes i have enormous thoughts of creativity!

We received the brief and we had a brainstorming session everyday. I could say these people have straight thinking and they just lead something in a straight way. In the other hand, the asian i could say we have special case. We see things sideways and sometime we see things from back way too. But the only problem with us..i mean me..Its hard to explain and to elaborate my thoughts to them as i has language barrier that slowly getting improve now.

Yeah, that's why i choose to learn! people make mistakes.

I am getting older in few days time and sometimes i feel like i want to freeze the time. Its running too fast and i cant follow the pace. Last few day i think i had nervous breakdown because only God knows what im doing to myself. But during that time i tried to reverse

myself and dig back the hole of disappointment in me.

Am i in hell or heaven?

But now while writing this blog i guess i am feeling better.

I cant feel anything right now.

I feel numb.

But thats not a problem at all! i know how to fix myself and i will. It is just sometimes i feel i need a break. I need a place where no one could hear me and see me. I want to hide myself and just keep everything deep down inside. Its better that way. No guilty feeling, anger or madness towards other human.

I still have 2 more weeks before semester break. I wanna go home and meet my family.

i miss my cats. i miss my car, i miss to talk with people i love and care. I miss being nag by people who care for me very much. I miss having that person who used to play computer games together after school and he will talk and ask me about school stuff while playing.

No worries.I still have 6 months to go and i will step up to another level after this. c h o i c e!

that's how the Kiwi express their feelings.

For me..i would rather say A l h a m d u l i l l a h .