Bilik Kelam.

Ada yang dengar ketika aku berbisik?
Ada yang selongkar ketika aku mengemas diri.
Selerak, serabut, semak.
Luar nampak atur, terang,manis.
Dalam kelam, gelap, pahit.

Sesal datang pergi,
Endah entah tidak.
Mana pegi diri?
Hilang diri sendiri.
Kerap suluh yang sudah terang.
Yang gelap biar usang.

Mana?
Bila?
Harus apa lagi?

selongkar hati,
suluh jiwa.

letting the cables sleep.

You in the dark

You in the pain

You on the run

Living a hell

Living your ghost

Living your end

Never seem to get in the place that I belong

Don't wanna lose the time

Lose the time to come

Whatever you say it's alright

Whatever you do it's all good

Whatever you say it's alright

You in the sea On a decline

Breaking the waves

Watching the lights go down

Letting the cables sleep

Silence is not the way

We need to talk about it

If heaven is on the way

We'll wrap the world around it

If heaven is on the way

If heaven is on the way

I'm a stranger in this town

I'm a stranger in this town

If heaven is on the way

If heaven is on the way

I'm a stranger in this town

I'm a stranger in this town

i miss my cats!

I have been taking care of nearly 20 cats at home. And these are the few name i still remember.

Endut, brownies, e.t, acong, lara, blackiey, max, sarip, manja, teh, jm, buntal, boogie,

dude, comel, jr, shit i forgot others...i missss all of you...!!

Cat + me = Happiness.

How to percieve motto ' be yourself'

I had discussion with mr text this morning while baking bread at Jackman & Mcross in Hobart.

That's the only day for me i can say working in a leisure time. Its only two of us moulding and playing with butter and flour. We didnt get enough sleep that night because it was New Year eve and it is funny for me starting my 2008 with making muffin and savoury for Mat Salleh to eat. Banggalah jugakkan.hehe.

That morning around 530am we were forced by mr text's annoying alarm clock. He has more that 1 alarm clock in the house. In the bedroom, livingroom, even in the kitchen and that doesnt includes his mobile phone. Unfortunately when the alarm rang, its me who woke up instead of he himself. Cis!

But lucky me that morning he woke me up after i made myself deaf not to switch off the alarm. We then drove to the bakery.

As usual i need to do prep work like chopping chives, dried tomatoes, baby rocket and some mustards. I learnt a lot on healthy food and preparing it. lucky me.

after few hours of working i finally done my part and just waitng for the bread to cook in the gigantic oven. I forgot how the conversation starts but we suddenly talked about the term ' be yourself'. Me myself has my point of view that there is no phrase 'be yourself' in human because our perception, thinking, personality were ditermine by people we sees most such as our parents, siblings or bestfriends.

Be yourself.

we are ourself and there is no way we could change our thinking and personality in just a snap of finger.

But, in the other way of other people's thinking which is mr text, he has his point of view that lets take chameleon as example. They change color based on the environment. They sooth into the place they go and be part of it.

ok first things first, what is a chameleon?

Chamaeleo pardalis, a chameleon species found in the forests of Madagascar. Chameleons can produce a wide range of colors and patterns on their skin, but they do this primarily to express mood, not to blend in with different environments.(http://science.howstuffworks.com/animal-camouflage2.htm)

To express mood?

That is so wonderful!

i wish i could do that and if i could i might have red color all the time because i am a mood swinger. From what i know, human do have color and its called aura.

ok lets go back to the main topic here,

i think i have no more idea to talk about it cuz i am now interested in reading more about chameleon and human's aura.

Perhaps, there wont be any conclusion on this topic but i am sure different people have different meaning on 'be yourself' motto. As for me i am quite sure of myself i am definetely being myself!

cheers!